It's Going To Be Okay

My sailor is coming home!

     For a visit, of course. In less that two weeks I will have my sailor in my arms. Plans have changed yet again as well. He is now flying home Thursday night and will fly back to SC the following Thursday morning. He won't be here for a week, more like 5 days, even though he took a weeks worth of leave. No matter though. The important thing is that he is going to be on his way home only hours after I finish my final exams. What good timing. He'll be home for his dad's birthday and Mother's Day. I booked our hotel in Wildwood for two nights for Car Show Weekend. We'll get some good quality time and I'm super happy with that. He'll also get plenty of time to see family when I go to work since I only took off a couple days. Everybody should be happy, and thats the problem.
     You see, whenever something goes right in my life something bad always has to counter it. It's like some demented checks and balances system that life has for me. The good that happened is that Anthony got approved for leave and will fly home, which means more time with him. I got a great deal on a good old-fashioned Wildwood hotel and this semester was an easy ride. Now the bad part starts. You already know about tuition going up, and now Anthony has managed to get himself written up. He's been losing it again starting yesterday. Well, he's been slowly losing it since Christmas but yesterday he plummeted. Two sailors in his same situation got their orders. One to West Virginia and the other to Maine. Maine of all places - Anthony's favorite. They got pulled from the Nuke program after Anthony did and they got their orders before he did. As you can guess he threw a fit. Got in trouble for that. Then while he was on the phone with me he threw his clothes iron on the concrete. I assume he broke it. I'm not sure specifically what got him written up, he didn't say why or what that will do to his career.
       He's doing a good job of making sure everyone knows he's not happy. He told me that he will tell the chiefs right to them. No wonder he hasn't gotten orders yet. This is what always happens to my poor sailor. It can be traced back to high school and beyond. He acts out when things aren't right and then others who are less vocal or violent get what they want first. That's just how things work. But what Anthony doesn't want to do he doesn't want to do. He doesn't bend to the will of other people, especially those he doesn't respect. He just doesn't have the right mindset for the military. Never did. You would think he would listen to me when I told him this was a bad idea, but no. He wasn't going to stay home, thus bending to my will, and now look. I told him from the word recruiter that I didn't think it would work. As I'm sure we would all like Anthony to stay and be on a good path I personally don't see it happening. It simply is not compatible with his nature.
     The recent drama has been particularly difficult to deal with. It almost makes you think that you are the one who is crazy. It makes you feel so powerless, like nothing you can say can make them feel at ease. When a person is that mentally unstable anything you say could set them off. In those instances when you yourself are afraid, you can't think of anything safe to say to the person on the other end of the line. You could say something harmless and they could twist it and add it to their discomfort. You just sit, quiet, and listen to them bang stuff around because they're so lost. You wonder, why did I even ask them to call me? What can I say? I'm not a therapist by any means, so when I'm put in these situations I just keep quiet. A patient voice waiting for the right moment to say, "It's going to be okay."