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Gah!
    
    When will it end? When will we ever know what is really going to happen? The day before that's when. In the military nothing will ever be known for certain until the moment it happens. Which totally stinks when you're trying to plan a life. First order of business, Anthony's orders have been recalled. He is no longer headed to Bahrain because he is not a "second class swimmer". They're just going to take someone who is already qualified rather than give Anthony the test to become qualified. I'm not really upset about that but I know my sailor was getting ready mentally for this voyage. We thought he finally had a direction until then they put the kebash on that. He was being such a good sailor and getting in touch with the command over there to see what was up. I feel so bad. They just can't seem to cut Anthony a break. By word of mouth, he said that they told him he would be going to Virginia still. This is not on paper yet so it's very unofficial. His previous orders are still accurate as of right now until they hand him the new ones. However we do know that they have been dismissed. 
    On a happier note, my sailor came home for a visit! Yayy! I was so happy to see him! His mom and I went to get him at the airport Thursday night. I remember feeling so nauseous watching each minute tick by. As the seemingly endless sea of passengers exited the gates I felt like I could throw up. None of them were Anthony and I was beginning to wonder where the heck he was. Then I saw a shimmer of blonde hair. I almost lost it. The only thing that stood between me and my favorite person was that damn cylindrical glass door thingy. I could almost break it if I wasn't weak in the knees. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity but was over in a flash, Anthony came through the glass door and was immediately greeted by his mom. Then he came over to me and we hugged so tight for so long. I made a scene in the middle of the airport by crying on him for like ten minutes. 
    My sailor's visit home was absolutely wonderful. I stayed with him that night he came him, then we headed to Wildwood the next morning for our two-night stay by the sea. It was really nice to have him with me. Just us for awhile. Some good time to bond and be together. It makes me fairly upset that it didn't last very long and was over in the blink of an eye. It's truly not fair. It almost feels like none of it even happened. After the weekend we came home on Mother's Day to see our moms. The rest of my sailor's time home would be spent with me, his mom, his dad, his brother and anyone else who could find time to say hello. It's moments like these when we appreciate the time we have with those we love.
    Now I wish I could go back and do it all over again. It all happened so fast I can hardly believe my sailor was home. I miss him so much. I know in the end this will all be worth it. It's just so darn hard to deal with until then. The way time moves he will be done his years in the Navy sooner than I expect. Words cannot express my joy when I had my sailor in my arms. Neither can words express my sorrow as I had to force myself to drive away from him. It is one of the hardest things I have had to do. I never ever want to voluntarily abandon him as he watches me fade into the distance. It tears my hear completely in two. My only hope is that he will make his way to Virgina and thus back home on the weekends. 
    In other happier news, while Anthony was home he and I made our way to the jewelry store. Guess who put in an order for an engagement setting? Anthony did! And he cringed as he slowly opened his wallet and let the moths out. It's rose gold and custom sized for my tiny hands. Anthony will do his diamond homework and pick one out on his own. I will pick up my setting when the jewelers call and then send it down to Anthony when he has a stable address. Then he can put the finishing touches and brace himself for the other moment we've all been waiting for!